Oh the plight of the entrepreneur. The highs and the lows. Sometimes though when the lows hit... it can be a doozy.
It was the second week of February and I got hit with that crazy flu. I was down for the count in every way. I couldn't speak, I couldn't see, I couldn't move. I'm not sure which was worst. Sometimes I felt defeated by the symptom that pertained to my vision because this affected my ability to read and respond to client emails. I ended up being late on client projects, I was unable to start projects. My mood was shot too.
There was a change though. I went to the doctor on day two of feeling like crap. My usual method of coping with illness involved self medicating and not seeking medical help. I know I just spoke of the business, but I really missed my husband and daughter. They "visited" me only when necsessary.
But I digress for a moment. I went to the doctor because last year I came to the conclusion that I am not a Superhero.
Last year I spoke up a bit more (though it's still a struggle). I told my husband that I need more help balancing the budget. I needed some me time to engage in self care. I told him I wanted to pay a fair amount of change (but manageable) to a business coach. He was cool with all of this.
By the way. He usually is agreeable to my requests. I just have this ridiculous habit of playing the matyr... Or suffering from mom guilt.
Arrrrrgh. Digressed again.
So I went to the doctor because I have a responsibility to myself first to feel better. The life of the solopreneur depends on it. I was out of commission for three days. But when I began taking that prescribed nasal spray, my body felt better 8% that evening. The next day... What a difference.
So a month and a half later, I still feel behind the 8 ball. I wallowed a bit. Wined to my coach. Got great insight from her and even more me time from the hubby, but ultimately this goal of mine is up to me. So I thank my family (extended and immediate), but it's now time to get back to the basics. My site has been neglected a bit. I am back now with my first personal post for the year.
Last year I saw much success from adding blog posts consistently to my site. Every week in fact. I now have 4400 page views per month and 695 unique visits. This year as I grow my business and share how I can help others with their digital marketing, I will be talking about what I am going through behind the scenes.
I am confident, however I suffer from:
• the occasional bought of imposter syndrome
• sleep deprivation
• mom guilt
• wife guilt
• not enough time
What? Oh... Ok... I'm not alone. Sweet!
I feel better now that I can talk about it then.
So I'm going to wrap up this post. But I will say that I know I can do this. I will do this. I also hope that this "I'm not a superhero confession" resonates with individuals who may be going through the same entreprenurial issues.
If it does, I would love to hear from you. How do you cope?